Live Today

I woke up this morning with thoughts of what I needed to do. Right now, thats not a lot, I need to go back out and get a job. I haven’t worked outside the home in 6 or 7 years. My background/degree is Interior Design, I love the design and probably should have went into architecture, but that would not have got me where I am today. I hear people say, I wish I could have changed things. Trust me when I say, I should have made better choices, but I cannot say I would change anything. See, if I changed anything I wouldn’t have the people in my life I do now. I love my people, I have wonderful friends, of course family, but they were already there and stuck with me. Who may not be in my life though, my boys, my husband. I do love my boys, I count Jeff as one of my boys, I’m in a house of boys and wouldn’t change a thing. No matter how much I want my little boys to stay little or time to slow down, I still want to watch them grow. I’m their mom, mom, not friend.

It’s my job to raise them into amazing gentlemen, to teach them respect, loyalty, love. Hold the door open, not just for women and children, they do know to let women first, but to peers too. They still are working on manners, Jeff and I did teach them manners at a young age at the dinner table, then public school happened. Now, we work all breaks to correct table manners after being at school. Trust me when I say I have seen kids eat in school, not pretty. Definitely a work in progress, lol.

What I’m saying is, I’m not done here. God gave me a wake up call and I know my HA has woke a few more people up that are around me. I’ve said this before that I am determined to help at least one person and I will keep pushing and sharing what I have learned and still learning.

Heart attacks do not have a prejudice to age, race or sex. We need to realize this sooner than later. The first thing I do is read a bible scripture for the day, I use to pray first thing and I stopped. What, just stopped, no, social media has disadvantages as well as advantages. After my HA I joined two groups for women that had HA’s. I look through my fb feed for prayer request. There was a quick survey of ages one day in our group of ages for their first HA, 302 women participated in this one post.

Here are the ages of these 302 women, 47 years of age had the higher percentage. Women under the age of 60 have a higher rate of being misdiagnosed for a HA. Many women do not realize they even have had a minor HA until the “big one” happens. I will get back to more statistics another time, but I felt I needed to write this morning, to share and ask for you to pray for guidance for a fellow HA friend. Brandy is younger than me, she has a daughter, husband, family and friends. Her EF has dropped below 20%, defibrillator/pacemaker is keeping her alive, the drs and herself agreed to give it 6 months, she has gone 2 months and is exhausted, back in the hospital. For those that are not familiar with a defibrillator it is inserted up near your shoulder and has wires going directly into the heart. When the heart stops it will shock the heart To restart. You have the option to turn it off. Dad had his turned off when they released him to hospice. I was there the day dads was turned off, it’s just a wand they wave over the defibrillator, the magnets turn it off. Obviously there are more technical terms, but that’s the generic version. Brandy was open in her writing this morning, asking for opinions and understanding. It’s easy for us to tell her to fight, but we are not in her body. I can’t imagine how exhausted she is, I’m exhausted to where there are days I still want to sleep all day and she is over half lower than my EF. I wasn’t ever scared I would say to die, I just knew somehow I wasn’t done. Please remember, everyone has decisions to make in life, but not everyone will have the decision to turn their life off. This will be a decision Brandy’s whole family is in on, just like with dads. I’m not done raising my boys, I’m not sure if Brandy is done raising her daughter or maybe this will be her final teaching moment.

Today, hug your loved ones, tell your friends, you love them, Life is about living everyday, not just having one life.

Do something today to give you peace and know you reached someone today, make someone smile, you don’t know the decisions they are involved in.